One that I do not posess under certain circumstances.

We have been itching since Thursday for the biopsy results and so far, nothing.

We do know from her labs that her numbers are getting increasingly worse. We are headed back into the city tomorrow.

From her bloodwork, it is very apparent her liver is working very hard to fight something and tell us that something is wrong but we can’t pin it down. He’s shouting at her and telling her body to shut down a bit because he needs help. We have some of the best doctors in the country on our team and we’re confident that we’ll move through this rough patch like we have the patches before.

It was a tough weekend. Mom had to miss Sarah’s wedding and rehearsal dinner and that crushed her. Sarah is someone who has been there for mom in a different way since the minute she got on the list. Having been through a transplant and being the realist she is, her talks pulled mom out of some dark holes. Though doctors orders to not attend, mom felt an overwhelming sadness not being in attendance, especially given the people in Sarah’s life that chose not to be there because of their selfish tendencies. #iykyk Imagine not having a choice and it ruining your week? Something my mom will be sad about for a long time but she was so happy to hear about the most beautiful wedding and party, because these two deserved it more than anyone else.

Unfortunately we all go back to the waiting game. While waiting for results and waiting for answers, we continue to make the best of the hand we are dealt. We’ll enjoy this beautiful weather and go with whatever flow life is sending us on right now.

xoxo

nell